'Everytime i see a close friend of mine get attached, one side of me would feel very happy and tell him/her "im so happy for you!" but the other side of me would feel dejected and tell myself "you've just lost another friend".'
'They seemed so important to me, but when their love one appeared into their life, i was brushed away and it never seem to matter to them that i was gone and left alone at a corner. To them, it doesnt really make a difference. Except that their attention was diverted to someone else and 'me', just ceased existence.'
"Im not grumbling, neither am i complaining. Im just upset, that ive lost too many dear friends during this period of time. I know its not their fault, they too have their own life to live. I cant possibly be so selfish and expect them to be "mine" when they were not right from the start.
So who can i call them "friends"? Who can i put my trust totally and rely on them? I really felt very happy for them when i see them happily and blissfully in love. I really do. But simultaneously, it dawned on me that when they found someone to love, ive lost someone close.'
all this I quoted from my fren's blog....i felt the same way tho....
